The Dawn effect...

   Long back, when I was watching "Bachna Ae Haseeno", one dialogue struck a chord with me.When Deepika says " लोग sunrise और sunset को देख कर इतना philosophical क्यों बन जाते हे ! "I had my own experiences with sunrise.My philosophy grew from a saying.

   When I was in my 10th standard I was admitted into hostel.Considering the fact that I was a big nerd ,(no way you can imagine me that way now :P) I always sought solace in inspirational sayings.Like all good schools even my school had inspirational and enlightening poems hanged on the corridors.Daily morning around 6:30, while moving towards the study hours,I stopped by my principal's chamber.On the top of the door,a beautifully portrayed writing hanged.I used to devote 5 minutes of time every day to read it.(As I used to be among the meritorious students..my warden never really held strict restrictions on me.I had the advantage of being myself :P) Reading it during the sunrise had even more charm.Somewhere deep,it lets your heart to blossom.Now,I may not remember the entire composition but the ending verse stayed with me for long time.It goes like "Life's battle doesn't always goes to the fastest or the strongest...but it goes to the person who thinks he can win it". Till date,I recollect it every time I fell I am falling back.This saying is a priced asset in my mind.Every day which started with this morning activity stayed bright.May be,that's how my mind worked.(It was a sort of a flying start to a day)One day,while the whole batch left for class rooms,I was alone standing there.My chief warden saw me.He glared at me.(I was feeling little awkward...obviously you don't want others to think you seek inspiration...It is something everybody need but no body wants to reveal it).He came down to me and read it.He smiled but this time,little cleverly.He asked me "Do u like it?".I said "Yes...I feel inspired" (Instantly I swore at myself...cant you hold back ).He politely replied "Nice...it will take you a long way...Now its time..go to class".On my way back,I grinned.I was not expecting that from him.I was feeling far more relaxed.May be, everyone will have their own story of developing their attitude and character.A part of mine was just out.Seeing up,I had realized that sun was shining bright.

   Coming back to the present...I have now gone through a nostalgic trip down my memory lane.May be...every dawn will have an effect !! :)

There is light at the end of every tunnel...

   Through out the childhood I have heard many people say "Always be confident...never be over confident". Very few spoke about the actual difference.In their words, if you could repeat your achievements they spoke high about your morale else they blamed your over confidence.After all...we are living in a result driven world.
This argument could always come down to the  perennial debate of "Ends vs Means".Let me leave it for some other day.Coming back, many times I thought about that minute difference which separated those feelings.It was always the happiness assosiated with the success which let your confidence go high and Happiness will never come to you when some one gifts it.It was to be perceived.(This post will drift away from here...i recognised it only after writing completely)
    I have a peculiar friend who I always thought was an Introvert.Initially,we did nothing more than formally greeting each other.One day he looked upset (he never really smiled a lot..but that day i could make it out).I just sat with him.He suddenly started speaking in a pathetic tone "This life is getting miserable.Not because I lacked success.But i am unable to enjoy it.When ever i was extremely satisfied with a result, things turned away.Just when I feel I am happy, petty issues disturb me.No two consecutive things are related.Impressive academic performance, winning the Essay writing competition,good pat from a teacher brings a grin on my face. (Yeah..he was a nerd) But the annoying comments from batch mates,frequent quarrels in home is hitting me hard.Above all...the fact of handful friends is eating me.Never did I do harm to any one.Just that I am reserved and shy.No one really cares about the inner me.The real person inside is being deserted.I have just learned to live along with it.But today something is hurting me" Suddenly I was taken back.I never saw him speak so much.I consoled him and tried to induce strength.He left with a smile (Company of a friend on a 'low' day is really good...:) ).I thought about him.His problems were a bit trivial (at least I thought so). But he was in terrible pain.I thought,may be he needed to prioritize his needs.I still spent time trying to figure out what went wrong with him but could not come out with a response.
       We became good friends.But went in different ways for our further studies.Long after,I met him.This time, he was changed.He had a shining smile on his face.He gave me a high-five. His words were full of happiness.After talking for enough time, I simply asked him about his change.He grinned. (May be he expected this from me).He quoted a famous dialouge "Yeh dil jo he...bada darpok he yaar...usey Bewakoof bane ke rakho...Life me kithni bi badi problem ho...usey bolo...Koi bath nai chachu...ALL IZZ WELL" I observed him with a smile.He too flashed a smile of spark.Then I asked "Did that dialouge change u?". He quickly responded "Every knows it.But Aamir khan explained it convincingly".We burst out into laughter.That  encounter with him was short and crisp.But its essence was made.
      Later that night, I was tossing in my bed.He said the factor of his change very smartly.I knew, his emotional character always lies deep inside him.His perceived feelings haunted him for years.But he has managed to get along with it.Now,he has justified his heart.His life was heading in a better direction.With high intellectual quotient and bright attitude...there was no stopping him.A shy,reserved,sorrowful person now has a smile to die for.He is now the cool dude with extreme happiness.I went to sleep thinking "There is light at the end of every tunnel". :)
       

Not always you outsmart with your guile or probably....can u??

    This is my first post related to cricket.The game which every Indian is obsessed with.

    Yesterday, I was going through some websites to order some novels. There i saw an add saying "Do u think you are smart enough...Click here".Obviously, I knew it was a spam link.Considering my poor history ( had to format my system for clicking on a spam link), I warned myself not to move the cursor anywhere near it.As per human psychology, u think more about the things you don't want to do.I was no exception.Soon, my mind went back to think deep about "The smartest person". My mind flashed a name.I dint have a clue about how that name came up.My answer was Anil Kumble. Yeah..I typed it right.The Indian bowling great was my response.

             By the time i started watching cricket he has already taken 10 wickets in an innings.Right from Day One he was a star for me.Later when I saw Shane Warne bowl, I was confused about the way Leg spin was perceived.

Kumble's ball never turned beyond 10 degrees(I am being conservative with this figure). But still, he picked wickets at ease. Batsmen were always troubled by him.Through out the decade, he provided the break through when India needed it most.He was the spear head of our attack.His repertoire wasn't huge.But he still used length & bounce and varied it effectively enough to outsmart the batsman.But...he did for 18 long years!!! He did that through out his carrier.He did that every time he came out to ball.Did no batsman ever find it??Or was he clever enough to outsmart them too.He had something more.His work ethic was supported by a brave warrior attitude.The world had a glimpse of it when he came out to bowl against West Indies with a broken jaw.

    That day is still clear in my head.That match had come during my summer vacation.Usually 10 was my bed time but that day I decided to watch that day's play(night in India) along with my Cousin(I was too scared to be awake alone at night time...My cousin was way elder than me...Now he has a 3 year old kid). India started off well with good overnight score and placed a huge first innings total.Kumble got his jaw broken in that innings when Mervon Dillon bowled an awesome Bouncer.Just when WI started their batting my cousin fell asleep(He made sure I wasn't scared of being awake for some more time).Just when the Hosts batting was looking good to pile up a good score, I lost my interest.I was about to sleep.Then something strange happened.Anil Kumble came out to bowl with a bandage around his Head and Chin.I watched eagerly.I knew something was about to happen.Just then Kumble got Lara.That was a clear LBW.I nearly shouted out of joy (But still no one woke up).That was an amazing sight to watch in a LIVE match.That was a courageous display of sportsmanship.That was something which would be immortal in every Indian's heart.Next day, when my cousin inquired about the wicket...I explained it to him with lot of cheer, the elated me was in full swing( :) ).Then I read an Interview in which Kumble quoted something like "I knew I had to get a surgery done.It would do no harm if i went to bowl...as I did not have the option to opt out of surgery.Most important part was...My Team needed my services.I had to deliver".That was Heroic.Sir Viv Richards acknowledged it as one of the bravest things he'd seen on the field of play.

    That Day I felt proud.I saw something which would not happen often.At the same time,I felt inspired.

         By the time my mind was back in reality, it had traveled a lot.The only thing which struck my head was "Not always you outsmart with your guile or probably...can u??" :)

The Tag Line...

     Most of u might wonder seeing the description of the blog "Three feet from Gold".With the intentions of the title already being explained,its time for this phrase.Let me confirm, this is no catchy line trying to attract people.It digs deep inside my heart. This was a phrase which my dad told me when i was probably in my 3rd standard. It came all the way through my journey all these years. I sought solace in this saying when ever i felt like quitting. I even made a print out of it and kept it in front of my study table. I took inspiration from it every day.
    Well...the actual saying is "Golden mine under a depth of three feet".The initial version which my dad told me was, "long back, a person went on to buy some lands when he heard that there was a golden mine under it.Then he started digging it.Even after going deep inside the earth, he did not find trace of any gold existing. Unable to digest his temporary defeat(in the miner's version), he decided to sell the land and ended up selling it at half the original price.Then the new owner dug just three feet and became a billionaire over night.So the former stopped his search when he was just three feet from gold. He lost a golden fortune out of anger, out of frustration, out of agony". The moral sunk deep in my head.Never let your hard work go in vain, thinking you have been let down.
    When i grew up, i read the actual version."A person,probably named Darby(vague memory of mine),after weeks of labor found a shining ore. For taking it out he needed machinery...he needed money. He informed about his discovery to his relatives and neighbors. They funded him.The first car of ore was mined and sent.They knew they would be rich in no time. They would be free of debts. Then came the twist in the tale. As the drill went down, they did not find any more ore.They still desperately drilled, but their efforts were not rewarded.Finally, they decided to quit. They sold the machinery to a lay man.This man was not so dumb.He called in a professional engineer and asked him to do so calculations. Engineer advised him to proceed the drilling in a direction perpendicular to the previous drilling.His calculations showed up and found gold in just THREE FEET." What did Darby lack? He lacked the will to seek counsel. He lacked the intentions of optimizing goals by seeking expert opinion.
    Now i feel,actually my dad explained me the first version to make me feel more responsible.Both the versions had a moral, an important moral.Whatever it may take, never let your hard work's fruits to be eaten by some one else. Your life's journey will be smooth with out any repents. :)

Kick Off

This blog is my first initiative to make sure every thought converts into an action. At least by writing it.
     Till date, i have always been a casual guy trying to enjoy the life's journey. A little too enthusiastic, a bit more expressive, fun loving humorous person. A great fan of Harsha Bhogle & Steve jobs. Because their mantra "Follow your heart to be successful" echoes in my mind every time i sit down to make a decision. This may be the basic funda of every one but i value it more because i learned it far too lately.
     Deep inside, I always thought, every person in this world will have a different personality or at least a part, which might differ from what is being exhibited. May be that inner voice was never given a chance to speak. It was suppressed in the fear of insecurity. It was  held back for the concern of being embarrassed. Even I belong to the same breed. The touch-me-not version of my mind bumps into me every now and then. I want the long silence to be broken. I want to speak my heart through this blog. May be these lines are bit too dramatic for my  way of life but that's the truth. I always wanted to own a blog , for various reasons, but this one forms its core. And officially...i now kick off !! :)